About…
Exile. Don’t let us be misled, there are
multiple ways which can be taken by the exile, many of various tastes
and specificities to the infinite of our beings’ nature, of our
pasts and our evolutions, of His creation. They even sometimes engrave
themselves maliciously with aptness or humour, or even with the quasi-punitive
or humiliating irony inside the physical geographies of a soil of “étrangèreté”
which we tread on during this way of earth as in the “interine”
abysses separating us from the Divine. In any case, to look at it closer,
it comes to the same thing, it only hangs on the amplitude of the regard
or the vision that we bring on ourselves and the world, and as it is the
most often limited we still see so little of it ! According a lot of multiple
aspects, the road may sometimes appear very long, monotonous and maybe
even painful, however, we are sometimes granted of being able to take
a short cut of a more or less well-intentioned chance — in any case
very certainly well-intentional, we don’t doubt about it anymore
— , “grace” which can finally turn out a tiny bit paradoxal
indeed ambiguous according to our moods and our soul states (or Conscience
states) of the moment and which forces us to wait for the biggest of the
not always particularly “listening” and receptive troops as
we would like them to be, under the watchword of the change and of the
luminous promise. Exhausted troops, unaccomplished parts of our beings,
worn out with heavy legs numbed by forced march — Thanks to Yoga
! — Troops that we had left forgotten behind rather enough cheerfully,
let us recognize it, in the joy of our so sudden and paradoxically enlightened
(“lumine”) guide’s advance. We had forgotten how our
mental and our imagination (among others, dissident companions or mutineers
of the journey) have well fast created bridges of virtuality and trompe
l’œil ; however the fact remains that the battle is most often
very painfully won as it is on the front of a trench warfare by the tenacity
and pugnacity set against the opposite adverse force, adverse force which
is just by chance the quasi exact and symmetrical replica of the one that
we set against it. Hum ! We were able to discover and experiment how the Power in this place was able to be present, powerful, predatory and ingratiating and take over insidiously * — *at the worst we dare to hope it at least — the twisted part of certain human beings, and infect or inflame this secret wound which the human beings don’t stop titillate most often unconsciously or carelessly. We then had this image which spread frequently across our mind, this image that it was becoming urgent to Auroville to have a gigantic mirror for allowing this city to see in its global nature the state of its own individual and personal misery, its own default of a commun Ideal. A super-barometer of the soul state, well ! But there it is, the guides are gone, leaving the place somehow in fallow to its own fallowing destiny with little too wide directives and from then on apparently contradictory for the individual receptive narrowness, it was really them who were until then the mirror-conscience of this humanity in quest. We dreamt of the healing power of what the vision of this fabulous anamorphosis in its monstrous and grotesque aspect would be able to reveal to the astounded eyes of the inhabitants of this so well heiress-city of a so hardly tolerable and bearable Meaning from then on. We could not bear anymore the well thinking and mostly accommodating “overworked-parrot” of the “Mother has said…” in brief we were already somebody else and somewhere else, sent by the same occasion in the world, and unfortunately there is so little to say of this one, maybe do we lack simplicity, we shall then not be able despite everything to always say too much, although we however already know it so well and that it doesn’t have many real surprises in store for us, in any case really gifted of the Meaning of what we imagine the spirit of the Integral Yoga to be ! We know what this inevitable “re-connection”
with this world (moreover occidental !) means as well as the confrontation
and the forced immersion with this other language, with this “unacceptable”
after those stays in India and how much energy and inner tolerance is
necessary, to take on very empirically and approximately the consequences
of those fracture and “séparativité” in the
therefore inevitably dual nature of the unaccomplished being that we still
are, to readjust with the so restrictive rules of the “social survival”
without for all that, having to deny, to gnaw, to compromise ourselves
; to rediscover also what the word resistance wants to signify and really
takes shape of meaning, to engender and impose, for going more and more
through the opaque layers and aspects of those “lacks” of
ourselves (for not having to talk about the one of the others !) that
we certainly had also put aside — our troops, we should maybe rather
say our herd — to find again in this world of quasi total ontological
and psychic* wandering (we shall avoid the word “spiritual”
in what it could evoke of such a difference and equivocation for every
one of us) one particle of this so specific Meaning of this Yoga which
could re-contact us, re-center us, re-formulate us, re-energize us and
allow us to look into the individual and personal possibility of confirming
the possible creative space of some testimony and recognition.
Fraternally Translated by Annick
PETITDEMANGE
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